In October I’m going to uni if everything goes as planed. I’ve looked forward to this moment for ever. I’ve never really been a high school person. What I’m trying to say is that I never was popular or particularly talented.
I’m the smart kid that doesn’t really care I guess. Just get the marks you need to leave. I’m going to law school and I am exited. But at the same time I am so terrified. And I feel like no one tells you this. There is no one who will tell you the truth.
I can be honest with you and say yes I cried. I’m afraid of failing. Like lots of people! So I went to my mum and asked her what I should do. She just looked me in the eye and said “you’ve always wanted to be a lawyer don’t give up now. And it’s true. At the age of 3 I would tell my mums friends that they should get divorced and I’ll make them rich in the settlement. Aka things a kid shouldn’t be saying haha. And funny enough I wasn’t allowed to what TV so don’t really know where it came form.
So I guess I’m jumping in the deep and. I don’t even know if I will like it, maybe I won’t even be good at it. But I know that if I don’t go and try I’m going to hate myself forever. And I feel like it’s importent to take a leap of faith. I believe in me and maybe this is the right path for me.
I’m not this perfect human being and I will never ever know what life will trow at me. But it’s better to fail then to live with regret. I am realising this when I look back. Their have been so many things that I wish I did. So this time I’m letting my heart take the weal and giving my conscious a vacation on the back seat.